Sunday's are Rough

Apparently, I have a LOT on my mind! 4 posts in less than 24 hours! I am sure that will slow down once I have my head emptied out!

Sunday's are rough on me. It is the day that I cry all day long. My heart is heavy and my spirit is weak. I guess because of my religious beliefs or upbringing, on Sunday's my emotions are more open and vulnerable and they have apparently chosen Sunday's as a day of mourning..... I mourn my son and grandson (for anyone that does not know, my son has not talked to me in years) .... I mourn my grandmother and grandfather..... and if I truly choose to let go, I am sad over each and every wrong decision and wrong turn that I have made in my life....

It seems that my body would also give me another day.... a day of hope and joy..... Maybe it is up to me to find and create that day... maybe THAT can be my New Year's Resolution..... to create a day in my life to remember the good times and the things that I have done right and to celebrate the joy that is deep in my heart and the love that is in my soul. I know that joy and love are there, I just can't seem to find it on Sunday's.

So..... let's see..... a day of hope...... Monday's I work both jobs... no time there..... Tuesdays..... Tuesday's might be good because Kris is home..... but.... this needs to be about me, not couple or family..... Wednesday's is my late day at job one..... Thursday's..... hmmmm the day just before crunch time in my schedule.... that might work..... Friday's...... work both jobs.... Saturday's...... terribly exhausted.... I guess it is THURSDAY!

Thursday will be the day that I focus on the good in my life.... The fact that I actually have not just one but two jobs during this tough economic time in our country! The fact that 2 of my 3 children love and even cherish me.... the fact that the same man has tolerated and loved me for over 25 years.... the fact that I now have all 3 of my brothers talking to me and not because they are being forced to.... even the fact that I have 2 dogs that remind me how comical and simple life can be!